Sharia why do you go to church?
I can’t count the number of times I’ve been asked that question. But now that I’ve had time to actually think about it, here’s my answer.
But before I begin let me just say the constitution granted us freedom of religion. So therefore I am not judging anyone based on their beliefs. I’m just telling you what works for me.
Also I am not a religious person, Spiritual yes, but to me being religious is like being perfect. So before I begin my reasons for going to church I wanted to clarify those things.
You see as a child my mother would wake my sister and I up every Sunday to go to church. In fact sometimes she had to beat me with a broom just to get me out of bed. I never understood why church was so important to my mother until I became an adult.
When I finally moved away for college I was glad that I didn’t have my mother bugging me about going to church every Sunday, but that soon changed.
My first semester at University of Buffalo, my soul didn’t feel right. All the morals my mother taught me disappeared until I met a friend who told me and I quote “Sharia you need Jesus”
As funny as that sounds, she was right. I knew every time I went to church I wanted to do right! I wanted to make God proud of me. But when I stopped going I stopped caring how God felt. Since then I started going to church with my friend almost every Sunday and I was right back on track until I moved to Washington DC.
In DC there are hundreds of churches, and finding the right one was hard to do, so I stopped going. Once again I was back to square one. I was partying and doing things I knew God would not be proud of. After each sinful act I would feel lost, hurt, and afraid. I didn’t like that feeling so I decided to visit several churches until I found one that suited me.
I’ve been on this same pattern for years. But now I know I cannot live without church.
Some of you may ask “Sharia why do you have to go to church, why can’t you worship at home?” Well here’s my answer, going to church isn’t just about learning how to follow Christ, to me it’s also about fellowship. At church I’ve met so many people who helped me change my life. People who help me pay for college and find a job, people who helped my family during tough times, people who prayed for my safety and cared for me. And when you have that kind of love you don’t want to walk away from it. I don’t get that same feeling at home while watching other pastors on TV.
The reason why I’m blogging about this today is because I’ve missed church for the past three weeks due to reasons beyond my control. And once again I’m having that sense of lost, hurt and fear.
But I’ll be ok, I know I have a lot of people praying and caring for me.
But now on the days where I know I can go, I go. And this time around my mother doesn’t have to yell and scream for me to wake up. I have my heavenly Father to do that instead because He knows just how important it is for me to be there.
That’s my answer.



